Theos-Talk Archives (February 2003 Message tt00359)

Do you know what associative thought is? It is where one idea triggers another and that triggers another and that triggers another one. It is not necessarily bad, but it is a form of mental laziness and usually an emotional reaction is behind it and it all keeps sort of rolling (like a ball going downhill.) It is sad when I realize I am doing this, but the good part (or the bad part, however you want to look at it) is that I usually do not even realize I am doing it as I am too identified.

When I was a child, someone explained to me that the Jewish way of killing an animal was by slitting its throat with a very sharp knife, as this causes the least possible amount of suffering and is therefore very merciful or something like that. This made a huge impression upon me, not the merciful part, but the killing part. I do not know how many hours I have spent pondering this by imagining what it would feel like to have my own throat cut by a very sharp knife and to feel my blood and life flowing out of me, This was not a pondering that happened all at once, as about five minutes of this is all I could take at a time, but I imagine I have spent well over one hour on this, spread over many years, trying to imagine how it would affect a cow, which is much stupider than a human, but still a sensitive living creature.

The fact is that something is happening with the Iraq situation that seems to be beyond our control. If I do not want to see innocent people killed, it might be a good idea to try to establish a certain kind of atmosphere anywhere I go, and start to make order. When I connect to others in a certain way, when I make an effort to be conscious, maybe it will affect the world around me. Basically, what is occurring is the fruiting of human karma. It is important to plant a different kind of seed by using every occasion with a motivation to help others develop the right view and become free from ignorance. BUT WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? It is a matter of developing discrimination (wisdom). 

In my opinion, Bush is a human being who is attempting to rise to an occasion in the best way he can. I believe he believes he is doing this to help future generations, and I personally agree with this, THOUGH IT IS HARD TO KNOW FOR SURE. Also, in my opinion he is no more ignorant than at least a few of the people I have met on this list, and maybe less do. (For any Americans on here, I am a democrat and was extremely upset when Bush was elected.) He is a human being who is simply not that conscious, trying to do the best he can, as is also, Sadism, and as actually probably so was Hitler. Generally speaking, people always do what they perceive to be good. Sometimes just not that much light is shining in the darkness.

Where is the light and how does it get to us? It comes to us from the sun in the sky and sometimes at night via a light bulb. Think this over. If you and I do not receive it fully (consciously), a certain substance will not be formed, and because of this we will not be able to extend this substance to each other in such a way that not only humanity can connect but also so that we can serve as universal regulators, being a highly evolved form of physical life. When we are not conscious enough to function as regulators, things fall into great disorder. It has been happening for a long time. Because people were lazy and did not make the effort in the past, this situation is coming to fruit now. It is the result of laziness. I have been lazy, too and still am. It is sad, but at least I refuse to small talk on this list or any email list, as it is wasting too great a precious opportunity. Tomorrow when I am about to small talk somewhere or other, I will remember that I wrote this message and maybe because of this, it will enable me to find my bearings and move in the right direction. Sincerely, Wry




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