Theos-Talk Archives (February 2001 Message tt00151)

Of astral bodybuilding and emotional growth:

Once upon the time my threefold personality contained astral, or the
feeling body, that had a little problem. It was like a bottleneck
between my etheric/physical and mental bodies. Yes it was a fine, nice
and quite functioning little astral body, but it was missing mass and
depth. It was just feeling too little.

So I began "a project" in order to correct that faculty of mine, that
was handicapping the bodies next to it, the physical and the mental
bodies. It's neighboroughs couldn't communicate each other too well
because every flow of energy went through that puny astral body. It
was also a risk to increase the capacity of the mental or etheric
bodies, because that would put too much stress into the astral body.
That kind of stress could easily rip astral body apart and cause
severe mental disorders. In order to expand my overall personality and
to make it more functional vehicle in the earth service, I decided to
grow my feeling point of experience, that would in turn remove the
friction with it's neighboroughs and perhaps making them work as one,
harmonized whole.

How was it done? Simply. Crying, fearing, raging and loving. Much of
this emotional work was done while my body was sleeping, and the rest
of course when the body was awake. In the nighttime, very vivid dreams
began to appear. I ran, I hide, I feared, I screamed, I raged, I
crushed, I pounded, I devastated, I conquered, I died, I cried, I
talked, I studied, I travelled, I played, I laughed, I loved, I
helped, I comforted, I healed. As I went through negative feelings, I
could feel more positive feelings too.

Every time I climbed into sunny hills, there was a vale of sorrow
waiting for me. And every time i went through the darkest hell of
human experience, the positive feedback was almost immediate. I pushed
and extended my feeling body both upwards and downwards. I rejoiced
with angels, I battled with devils. I went thru the chaotic black
madness and thru the halls of silent perfect order. Calmed, I was
still in the middle, now extended. Thru hell I conquered heaven. 

As I went through these experiences, I was adding lot of astral mass
into my astral body. I tamed those wild emotions of love, hate, fear
and sorrow. I brought them under my will and direction. It might be
sayed, that those emotional elementals are now "mine" and I have
responsibility over them, as I have reponsibility over my self. They
are me as I am them.

Where did that astral matter come? Surely not out of nowhere? From
this very planet it came. Our Planetary Man is suffering of those
untamed emotions, and we have been called to cleanse and stabilize His
emotional body. The Earth is not yet a sacred planet, but someday He
shall be, as we shall be. Our responsibility is to carry as much our
planet's karma we can carry. This carry might be of emotional kind,
and as we make it under our combined will, the Planetary Man shall be
free and that sets us free too.

Every day I cry, I dry the sea of sorrow. O:´)

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