Theos-Talk Archives (August 2004 Message tt00248)

I have taken both the tri-cyclics (Tofranil) and SSIRs (Prozac), and 
Prozac is definitely superior. The question, hoever, comes to 
mind, "who am I on Prozac?," or "what is my psychic reality?" The 
Scientologogists fought, and are still fighting, numerous battales 
against Prozac, but as far as I am concerned, it has saved my life 
thus far. I tried religious conversion, confession, change of 
lifestyle, etc., but for a Vietnam Vet with PTSD, manic-depression, 
anxiety, and OCD, Prozac was, and is, my only hope. I guess that 
my "ROM" is not wired right, but my "RAM" seems to be okay on 
Prozac. I also take Levitra for ED, but that doesn't make me a 
deviant, does it, not even to speak of the numerous heart pills I 
have had to take after bypass surgery? I recently kicked the 
narcotics that my heart specialists got me hooked on (yes, they still 
use morphine for heart surgery), and that was just as much a 
nightmare as anyone hooked on heroin--in fact, I was in mental lock-
up, at my request, for about two weeks. NOW, who am I? I have to re-
evaluate my mental status every day, every second. It has been hell 
for my family. That's Karma, huh? Ideas, Theosophy, as I said 
before, makes me "high," but helps keep me sane also. There are no 
gods to call on. As Buddha said, "Work out your own salvation."