Theos-Talk Archives (September 2002 Message tt00179)

Sept 28

Dear Jerry.

I send you a somewhat lengthy report -- see what you make of
it.

Dal

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I think it serves to answer in part some of your
observations.

Please see my observations and questions below.

Dal

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-----Original Message-----
From: gsc
Sent: Saturday, September 28, 2002 8:25 AM
To:
Subject: Dallas - Karma

<<<As individual immortals we always carry with us our
burden of Karma
(effects to be reaped or experienced), good or bad.>>>

Quite a statement Dallas. It assumes at least four things.
That:

1. We are individual immortals (ie eternal sepearate selves)
YES
2. We carry with us a karmic burden	YES

3. Karma has to do with good and evil	LAW UNIVERSAL PRO or
CON

4. Karma is a system of rewards and punishments	No but
IMPARTIAL

IMO: The first two assumptions are true conditionally or
relatively but are
not true ultimately. The last two assumptions have no
validity at all and are
pure human conceptualizations (they also result in needless
guilt as well as
feelings of either deflated egotism or inflated egotism both
of which propel
the mental continuum into future lives).

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DTB	GUILT implies a pre-knowledge of Law as to how to behave
and control ones actions.
Can we discover if the Universe runs by LAW or not ? (Not
whether we like it or not)

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Thus I would reject the entire sentence as being steeped in
mayavic
assumptions and also for making no allowances for liberation
(ie golden chains
are just as binding as iron chains and liberation is freedom
from both).

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DTB	MAYAVIC ASSUMPTIONS imply that there are at least two
views

1. the fact (truth) and

2. ignorance and illusion (or delusions).

It takes one who knows to see the difference.

But it also implies that the ultimate TRUTH exists, against
which a multitude of FALSE VIEWS are on the attack. Who and
How are those generated? What is their purpose ? Do they
help in true perception, or do they confuse. Are they
attuned to our pre-conceptions? Do they prevent us from
getting at a more universal view ?

What actuates them unless it is a personal position based on
selfish desire that does it.

We have to start somewhere? Are we always right ? Why are
there other views?


2.	LIBERATION of what from what ? Where does the
"Liberated" go? for how long? why?

Is there any activity or final result from this "vacation?"

Is it truly and ultimately BENEFICIAL ?

Agreed that earth life such as we know it is a burden and
confusing, but then how do we secure something that is truly
changeless and therefore "eternal" in an impersonal and
universal sense -- something we all share in, and need not
be "forced" to see or to agree to ?

I am always cautious when a single person says: "this is
true." I would rather have a dissertation on how to acquire
knowledge, and how to test for TRUTH. Then I feel freer in
using and testing that way. I hold that none of us can
express the whole truth, but each of us has experiences that
have lead us to a perception of at least the "foot-hills" of
the MOUNTAIN OF ETERNAL TRUTH.

If you can find elsewhere a philosophy as all-inclusive, and
integrated, and cohesive as Theosophy I would very much like
to hear of it.

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I find the sentence extremely interesting in light of the
fact that maya can
be defined as our belief in being a separate self, eternal
or otherwise, and
the existence of our karma and "karmic burden" depends on
our acceptance of
maya as so defined (and therefore karma is conditional and
not inherent).

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DTB	"BELIEF" is always uncertain. It is mixed up with the
concept of "I don't know for sure, but I hope that there
will be some pleasant reward or -- a "hope".

If one desires to take another's views (even the Buddha's )
as guide then we place our reliance not on what the BUDDHA
actually said (as reported in words), but on OUR
INTERPRETATION of that. We could be wrong, but, how to
check that for greater accuracy? There has to be an
impersonal and universal base somewhere. Something that any
one can use.

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Bottom Line: Anyone who believes/accepts Dallas' sentence
will remain in maya
and will suffer karmically just so long as that belief
lasts. Enlightenment
and liberation depend on seeing through the mayavic belief
in a self, and thus
in seeing through the false assumptions behind the sentence.

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DTB	You misunderstand me: I say that we are all inherently
free to pursue any line of study or inquiry. What makes us
free? We like everything else bathe in the INFINITE ALL --
THE ONLY ONE TRUTH.

Our individuality and separateness is an attempt of this ONE
CONSCIOUSNESS to learn more about ITSELF through our work,
thought, experiences, etc...

In the process we develop our individual capacity to
perceive it and its EXISTENCE, whether in manifestation or
our of manifestation. Of course these are many "personal"
mental concepts that we have developed, as we think of, an
review (as memory) our life's progress.

But in addition to these we have evidence of the "root"
metaphysical concepts (only provable by logic and
intuition --and only provable to ourselves), but still,
whether they are true or false, they indicate they have a
validity, as questions, and / or explanations.

As far as I can see, there are no dead-ends -- to progress;
and one life is hopelessly inadequate to secure a complete
knowledge of everything, and how, and why it works that way.

But have a look at the attached article (below).

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Have a nice day,


Jerry S.

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ARTICLE

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>
> THROUGH THE LIGHT
> ====================
>
> Mellen-Thomas Benedict is an artist who survived a
> near-death experience in 1982. He was dead for over an
hour
> and a half and during that time, he rose up out of his
body
> and went into the Light. Curious about the universe, he
was
> taken far into the remote depths of existence, and even
> beyond, into the energetic Void of Nothingness behind the
> Big Bang. Concerning his near-death experience, Dr.
> Kenneth Ring has said, "His story is one of the most
> remarkable I have encountered in my extensive research on
> near-death experiences."
>
> THE ROAD TO DEATH
>
> In 1982 I died from terminal cancer. The condition I had
> was inoperable, and any kind of chemotherapy they could
give
> me would just have made me more of a vegetable. I was
given
> six to eight months to live. I had been an information
> freak in the 1970's, and I had become increasingly
> despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis,
and
> so forth.
> So, since I did not have a spiritual basis, I began to
> believe that nature had made a mistake, and that we were
> probably a cancerous organism on the planet. I saw no way
> that we could get out from all the problems we had created
> for ourselves and the planet. I perceived all humans as
> cancer, and that is what I got. That is what killed me.
Be
> careful what your world view is. It can feed back on you,
> especially if it is a negative world view. I had a
> seriously negative one.
>
> That is what led me into my death. I tried all sorts of
> alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.
> So I determined that this was really just between me and
> God. I had never really faced God before, or even dealt
> with God. I was not into any kind of spirituality at the
> time, but I began a journey into learning about
spirituality
> and alternative healing. I set out to do all the reading
I
> could and bone up on the subject, because I did not want
to
> be surprised on the other side. So I started reading on
> various religions and philosophies. They were all very
> interesting, and gave hope that there was something on the
> other side.
>
> On the other hand, as a self-employed stained-glass artist
> at the time, I had no medical insurance whatsoever. So my
> life savings went overnight in testing. Then I was facing
> the medical profession without any kind of insurance. I
did
> not want to have my family dragged down financially, so I
> determined to handle this myself. There was not constant
> pain, but there were black-outs. I got so that I would
not
> dare to drive, and eventually I ended up in hospice care.
>
> I had my own personal hospice caretaker. I was very
blessed
> by this angel who went through the last part of this with
> me. I lasted about eighteen months. I did not want to
take
> a lot of drugs, since I wanted to be as conscious as
> possible. Then I experienced such pain that I had nothing
> but pain in my consciousness, luckily only for a few days
at
> a time.
>
>
> THE LIGHT OF GOD
>
>
> I remember waking up one morning at home about 4:30 am,
and
> I just knew that this was it. This was the day I was
going
> to die. So I called a few friends and said goodbye. I
woke
> up my hospice caretaker and told her. I had a private
> agreement with her that she would leave my dead body alone
> for six hours, since I had read that all kinds of
> interesting things happen when you die. I went back to
> sleep.
> The next thing I remember is the beginning of a typical
> near-death experience. Suddenly I was fully aware and I
was
> standing up, but my body was in the bed. There was this
> darkness around me. Being out of my body was even more
> vivid than ordinary experience. It was so vivid that I
> could see every room in the house, I could see the top of
> the house, I could see around the house, I could see under
> the house.
> There was this Light shining. I turned toward the Light.
>
> The Light was very similar to what many other people have
> described in their near-death experiences. It was so
> magnificent. It is tangible; you can feel it. It is
> alluring; you want to go to it like you would want to go
to
> your ideal mother's or father's arms. As I began to move
> toward the Light, I knew intuitively that if I went to the
> Light, I would be dead. So as I was moving toward the
Light
> I said, "Please wait a minute, just hold on a second here.
> I want to think about this; I would like to talk to you
> before I go."
> To my surprise, the entire experience halted at that
point.
>
> You are indeed in control of your near-death experience.
> You are not on a roller coaster ride. So my request was
> honored and I had some conversations with the Light. The
> Light kept changing into different figures, like Jesus,
> Buddha, Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and signs. I
> asked the Light, "What is going on here? Please, Light,
> clarify yourself for me. I really want to know the
reality
> of the situation." I cannot really say the exact words,
> because it was sort of telepathy.
>
> The Light responded. The information transferred to me
was
> that your beliefs shape the kind of feedback you are
getting
> before the Light. If you were a Buddhist or Catholic or
> Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop of your own stuff.
>
> You have a chance to look at it and examine it, but most
> people do not. As the Light revealed itself to me, I
became
> aware that what I was really seeing was our Higher Self
> matrix.
>
> The only thing I can tell you is that it turned into a
> matrix, a mandala of human souls, and what I saw was that
> what we call our Higher Self in each of us is a matrix.
> It's also a conduit to the Source; each one of us comes
> directly, as a direct experience from the Source. We all
> have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part of our being. It
> revealed itself to me in its truest energy form. The only
> way I can really describe it is that the being of the
Higher
> Self is more like a conduit. It did not look like that,
but
> it is a direct connection to the Source that each and
every
> one of us has. We are directly connected to the Source.
> So the Light was showing me the Higher Self matrix. And
it
> became very clear to me that all the Higher Selves are
> connected as one being, all humans are connected as one
> being, we are actually the same being, different aspects
of
> the same being. It was not committed to one particular
> religion.
>
> So that is what was being fed back to me. And I saw this
> mandala of human souls. It was the most beautiful thing I
> have ever seen. I just went into it and, it was just
> over-whelming. It was like all the love you've every
> wanted, and it was the kind of love that cures, heals,
> regenerates.
>
> As I asked the Light to keep explaining, I understood what
> the Higher Self matrix is. We have a grid around the
planet
> where all the Higher Selves are connected. This is like a
> great company, a next subtle level of energy around us,
the
> spirit level, you might say. Then, after a couple of
> minutes, I asked for more clarification. I really wanted
to
> know what the universe is about, and I was ready to go at
> that time. I said "I am ready, take me." Then the Light
> turned into the most beautiful thing that I have ever
seen:
> a mandala of human souls on this planet.
>
> Now I came to this with my negative view of what has
> happened on the planet. So as I asked the light to keep
> clarifying for me, I saw in this magnificent mandala how
> beautiful we all are in our essence, our core. We are the
> most beautiful creations. The human soul, the human
matrix
> that we all make together is absolutely fantastic,
elegant,
> exotic, every-thing. I just cannot say enough about how
it
> changed my opinion of human beings in that instant.
>
> I said, "Oh, God, I did not know how beautiful we are."
At
> any level, high or low, in whatever shape you are in, you
> are the most beautiful creation, you are. I was
astonished
> to find that there was no evil in any soul. I said "How
can
> this be?" The answer was that no soul was inherently evil.
> The terrible things that happened to people might make
them
> do evil things, but their souls were not evil. What all
> people seek, what sustains them, is love, the Light told
me.
> What distorts people is a lack of love.
>
> The revelations coming from the Light seemed to go
on
> and on, then I asked the Light, "Does this mean that
> humankind will be saved?" Then, like a trumpet blast with
a
> shower of spiraling lights, the Great Light spoke, saying,
> "Remember this and never forget; you save, redeem and heal
> yourself. You always have. You always will. You were
> created with the power to do so from before the beginning
of
> the world."
>
> In that instant I realized even more. I realized that WE
> HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED, and we saved ourselves because we
> were designed to self-correct like the rest of God's
> universe. This is what the second coming is about. I
> thanked the Light of God with all my heart. The best
thing
> I could come up with was these simple words of total
> appreciation: "Oh dear God, dear Universe, dear Great
Self,
> I love my Life."
>
> The Light seemed to breathe me in even more deeply. It
was
> as if the Light was completely absorbing me. The Love
Light
> is, to this day, indescribable. I entered into another
> realm, more profound than the last, and became aware of
> something more, much more. It was an enormous stream of
> Light, vast and full, deep in the Heart of Life. I asked
> what this was.
>
> The Light responded, "This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of
> this manna water to your heart's content." So I did. I
> took one big drink and then another. To drink of Life
> Itself! I was in ecstasy.
> Then the Light said, "You have a desire." The Light knew
> all about me, everything past, present and future.
>
> "Yes!" I whispered.
>
> I asked to see the rest of the Universe; beyond our solar
> system, beyond all human illusion. The Light then told me
> that I could go with the Stream. I did, and was carried
> through the Light at the end of the tunnel. I felt and
> heard a series of very soft sonic booms. What a rush!
>
>
> THE VOID OF NOTHINGNESS
>
>
> Suddenly I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet on
> this stream of Life. I saw the earth fly away. The solar
> system, in all its splendor, whizzed by and disappeared.
At
> faster than light speed, I flew through the center of the
> galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned
that
> this galaxy, and all of the Universe, is bursting with
many
> different varieties of LIFE. I saw many worlds. The good
> news is that we are not alone in this Universe!
>
> As I rode this stream of consciousness through the center
of
> the galaxy, the stream was expanding in awesome fractal
> waves of energy. The super clusters of galaxies with all
> their ancient wisdom flew by.
>
> At first I thought I was going somewhere; actually
> traveling. But then I realized that, as the stream was
> expanding, my own consciousness was also expanding to take
> in everything in the Universe! All creation passed by me.
> It was an unimaginable wonder! I truly was a Wonder
Child;
> a babe in Wonderland!
> It seemed as if all the creations in the Universe soared
by
> me and vanished in a speck of Light. Almost immediately,
a
> second Light appeared. It came from all sides, and was so
> different; a Light made up of more than every frequency in
> the Universe. I felt and heard several velvety sonic
booms
> again. My consciousness, or being, was expanding to
> interface with the entire Holographic Universe and more.
> As I passed into the second Light, the awareness came to
me
> that I had just transcended the Truth. Those are the best
> words I have for it, but I will try to explain. As I
passed
> into the second Light, I expanded beyond the First Light.
I
> found myself in a profound stillness, beyond all silence.
I
> could see or perceive FOREVER, beyond Infinity.
>
> I was in the Void.
>
> I was in pre-creation, before the Big Bang. I had crossed
> over the beginning of time - the First Word - the First
> vibration.
>
> I was in the Eye of Creation. I felt as if I was touching
> the Face of God. It was not a religious feeling. Simply
I
> was at one with Absolute Life and Consciousness.
>
> When I say that I could see or perceive forever, I mean
that
> I could experience all of creation generating itself. It
> was without beginning and without end. That's a
> mind-expanding thought, isn't it? Scientists perceive the
> Big Bang as a single event which created the Universe. I
> saw that the Big Bang is only one of an infinite number of
> Big Bangs creating Universes endlessly and simultaneously.
> The only images that even come close in human terms would
be
> those created by supercomputers using fractal geometry
> equations.
>
> The ancients knew of this. They said Godhead periodically
> created new Universes by breathing out, and de-creating
> other Universes by breathing in. These epochs were called
> Yugas.
>
> Modern science called this the Big Bang. I was in
absolute,
> pure consciousness. I could see or perceive all the Big
> Bangs or Yugas creating and de-creating themselves.
> Instantly I entered into them all simultaneously. I saw
> that each and every little piece of creation has the power
> to create. It is very difficult to try to explain this.
I
> am still speechless about this.
>
> It took me years after I returned to assimilate any words
at
> all for the Void experience. I can tell you this now; the
> Void is less than nothing, yet more than everything that
is!
> The Void is absolute zero; chaos forming all
possibilities.
> It is Absolute Consciousness; much more than even
Universal
> Intelligence.
> Where is the Void? I know. The Void is inside and outside
> everything. You, right now even while you live, are
always
> inside and outside the Void simultaneously. You don't
have
> to go anywhere or die to get there. The Void is the
vacuum
> or nothingness between all physical manifestations. The
> SPACE between atoms and their components.
>
> Modern science has begun to study this space between
> everything. They call it Zero-point. Whenever they try
to
> measure it, their instruments go off the scale, or to
> infinity, so to speak. They have no way, as of yet, to
> measure infinity accurately. There is more of the zero
> space in your own body and the Universe than anything
else!
>
> What mystics call the Void is not a void. It is so full
of
> energy, a different kind of energy that has created
> everything that we are. Everything since the Big Bang is
> vibration, from the first Word, which is the first
> vibration. The biblical "I am" really has a question mark
> after it. "I am - What am I?"
> So creation is God exploring God's Self through every way
> imaginable, in an ongoing, infinite exploration through
> every one of us. Through every piece of hair on your
head,
> through every leaf on every tree, through every atom, God
is
> exploring God's Self, the great "I am". I began to see
that
> everything that is, is the Self, literally, your Self, my
> Self. Everything is the great Self. That is why God
knows
> even when a leaf falls. That is possible because wherever
> you are is the center of the universe. Wherever any atom
> is, that is the center of the universe. There is God in
> that, and God in the Void.
> As I was exploring the Void and all the Yugas or
creations,
> I was completely out of time and space as we know it. In
> this expanded state, I discovered that creation is about
> Absolute Pure Consciousness, or God, coming into the
> Experience of Life as we know it. The Void itself is
devoid
> of experience.
> It is pre-life, before the first vibration. Godhead is
> about more than Life and Death. Therefore there is even
> more than Life and Death to experience in the Universe!
>
> I was in the Void and I was aware of everything that had
> ever been created. It was like I was looking out of God's
> eyes. I had become God. Suddenly I wasn't me any more.
>
> The only thing I can say, I was looking out of God's eyes.
>
> And suddenly I knew why every atom was, and I could see
> everything. The interesting point was that I went into
the
> Void, I came back with this understanding that God is not
> there. God is here. That's what it is all about.
>
> So this constant search of the human race to go out and
find
> God ... God gave everything to us, everything is here -
> this is where it's at. And what we are into now is God's
> exploration of God through us. People are so busy trying
to
> become God that they ought to realize that we are already
> God and God is becoming us. That's what it is really
about.
>
> When I realized this, I was finished with the Void, and
> wanted to return to this creation, or Yuga. It just
seemed
> like the natural thing to do. Then I suddenly came back
> through the second Light, or the Big Bang, hearing several
> more velvet booms. I rode the stream of consciousness
back
> through all of creation, and what a ride it was! The
super
> clusters of galaxies came through me with even more
> insights.
>
> I passed through the center of our galaxy, which is a
black
> hole. Black holes are the great processors or recyclers
of
> the Universe. Do you know what is on the other side of a
> Black Hole? We are; our galaxy; which has been
reprocessed
> from another Universe. In its total energy configuration,
> the galaxy looked like a fantastic city of lights. All
> energy this side of the Big Bang is light. Every
sub-atom,
> atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is made of
> light and has a frequency and/or particle. Light is
living
> stuff. Everything is made of light, even stones. So
> everything is alive. Everything is made from the Light of
> God; everything is very intelligent.
>
>
> THE LIGHT OF LOVE
>
>
> As I rode the stream on and on, I could eventually see a
> huge Light coming. I knew it was the First Light; the
> Higher Self Light Matrix of our solar system. Then the
> entire solar system appeared in the Light, accompanied by
> one of those velvet booms.
>
> I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger,
local
> body. This is our local body and we are much bigger than
we
> imagine. I saw that the solar system is our body. I am a
> part of this, and the earth is this great created being
that
> we are, and we are the part of it that knows that it is.
> But we are only that part of it. We are not everything,
but
> we are that part of it that knows that it is.
>
> I could see all the energy that this solar system
generates,
> and it is an incredible light show! I could hear the Music
> of the Spheres. Our solar system, as do all celestial
> bodies, generates a unique matrix of light, sound and
> vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other
star
> systems can spot life as we know it in the universe by the
> vibratory or energy matrix imprint. It is child's play.
> The earth's Wonder Child (human beings) make an abundance
of
> sound right now, like children playing in the backyard of
> the universe.
>
> I rode the stream directly into the center of the Light.
I
> felt embraced by the Light as it took me in with its
breath
> again, followed by another soft sonic boom.
> I was in this great Light of Love with the stream of life
> flowing through me. I have to say again, it is the most
> loving, non-judgmental Light. It is the ideal parent for
> this Wonder Child.
>
> "What now?" I wondered.
>
> The Light explained to me that there is no death; we are
> immortal beings. We have already been alive forever! I
> realized that we are part of a natural living system that
> recycles itself endlessly. I was never told that I had to
> come back. I just knew that I would. It was only
natural,
> from what I had seen.
> I don't know how long I was with the Light, in human time.
>
> But there came a moment when I realized that all my
> questions had been answered and my return was near. When
I
> say that all my questions were answered on the other side,
I
> mean to say just that. All my questions have been
answered.
> Every human has a different life and set of questions to
> explore.
> Some of our questions are Universal, but each of us is
> exploring this thing we call Life in our own unique way.
So
> is every other form of life, from mountains to every leaf
on
> every tree.
> And that is very important to the rest of us in this
> Universe.
>
> Because it all contributes to the Big Picture, the
fullness
> of Life. We are literally God exploring God's Self in an
> infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness enhances all of
> Life.
>
>
> HIS RETURN TO EARTH
>
>
> As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed
my
> mind, nor was I told, that I would return to the same
body.
> It just did not matter. I had complete trust in the Light
> and the Life process. As the stream merged with the great
> Light, I asked never to forget the revelations and the
> feelings of what I had learned on the other side.
>
> There was a "Yes". It felt like a kiss to my soul.
>
> Then I was taken back through the Light into the vibratory
> realm again. The whole process reversed, with even more
> information being given to me. I came back home, and I
was
> given lessons on the mechanics of reincarnation. I was
> given answers to all those little questions I had: "How
does
> this work? How does that work?" I knew that I would be
> reincarnated. The earth is a great processor of energy,
and
> individual consciousness evolves out of that into each one
> of us.
>
> I thought of myself as a human for the first time, and I
was
> happy to be that. From what I have seen, I would be happy
> to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So to be the
> human part of God ... this is the most fantastic
blessing.
> It is a blessing beyond our wildest estimation of what
> blessing can be. For each and every one of us to be the
> human part of this experience is awesome, and magnificent.
> Each and every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed
up
> or not, is a blessing to the planet, right where we are.
> So I went through the reincarnation process expecting to
be
> a baby somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how
> individual identity and consciousness evolve. So I
> reincarnated back into this body. I was so surprised when
I
> opened my eyes.
>
> I do not know why, because I understood it, but it was
still
> such a surprise to be back in this body, back in my room
> with someone looking over me crying her eyes out. It was
my
> hospice caretaker. She had given up an hour and a half
> after finding me dead. She was sure I was dead; all the
> signs of death were there - I was getting stiff.
>
> We do not know how long I was dead, but we do know that it
> was an hour and a half since I was found. She honored my
> wish to have my newly dead body left alone for a few hours
> as much as she could. We had an amplified stethoscope and
> many ways of checking out the vital functions of the body
to
> see what was happening. She can verify that I really was
> dead. It was not a near-death experience. I experienced
> death itself for at least an hour and a half. She found
me
> dead and checked the stethoscope, blood pressure and heart
> rate monitor for an hour and a half. Then I awakened and
> saw the light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but
I
> fell out of the bed. She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and
> found me on the floor.
> When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed
> about what had happened to me. At first all the memory of
> the trip that I have now was not there. I kept slipping
out
> of this world and kept asking, "Am I alive?" This world
> seemed more like a dream than that one. Within three
days,
> I was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than I
> had ever felt in my life. My memory of the journey came
> back later.
> I could see nothing wrong with any human being I had ever
> seen. Before that I was really judgmental. I thought a
lot
> of people were really screwed up, in fact I thought that
> everybody was screwed up but me. But I got clear on all
> that.
>
> About three months later a friend said I should get
tested,
> so I went and got the scans and so forth. I really felt
> good, so I was afraid of getting bad news. I remember the
> doctor at the clinic looking at the before and after
scans,
> saying, "Well, there is nothing here now." I said,
"Really,
> it must be a miracle?"
> He said "No, these things happen, they are called
> spontaneous remission." He acted very unimpressed. But
> here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no one
else
> was.
>
>
> LESSONS HE LEARNED
>
>
> The mystery of life has very little to do with
intelligence.
> The universe is not an intellectual process at all. The
> intellect is helpful; it is brilliant, but right now that
is
> all we process with, instead of our hearts and the wiser
> part of ourselves.
>
> The center of the earth is this great transmuter of
energy,
> just as you see in pictures of our earth's magnetic field.
> That's our cycle, pulling reincarnated souls back in and
> through it again. A sign that you are reaching human
level
> is that you are beginning to evolve an individual
> consciousness.
> The animals have a group soul, and they reincarnate in
group
> souls. A deer is pretty much going to be a deer forever.
> But just being born a human, whether deformed or genius,
> shows that you are on the path to developing an individual
> consciousness. That is in itself part of the group
> consciousness called humanity.
>
> I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like
> France, Germany and China each have their own personality.
> Cities have personalities, their local group souls that
> attract certain people. Families have group souls.
> Individual identity is evolving like branches of a
fractal;
> the group soul explores in our individuality. The
different
> questions that each of us has are very, very important.
> This is how Godhead is exploring God's Self - through you.
> So ask your questions, do your searching. You will find
> your Self and you will find God in that Self, because it
is
> only the Self.
>
> More than that, I began to see that each one of us humans
> are soul mates. We are part of the same soul fractaling
out
> in many creative directions, but still the same. Now I
look
> at every human being that I ever see, and I see a soul
mate,
> my soul mate, the one I have always been looking for.
> Beyond that, the greatest soul mate that you will ever
have
> is yourself.
>
> We are each both male and female. We experience this in
the
> womb and we experience this in reincarnation states. If
you
> are looking for that ultimate soul mate outside of
yourself,
> you may never find it; it is not there. Just as God is
not
> "there".
>
> God is here. Don't look "out there" for God. Look here
for
> God. Look through your Self. Start having the greatest
> love affair you ever had ... with your Self. You will
love
> everything out of that.
> I had a descent into what you might call Hell, and it was
> very surprising. I did not see Satan or evil. My descent
> into Hell was a descent into each person's customized
human
> misery, ignorance, and darkness of not-knowing. It seemed
> like a miserable eternity. But each of the millions of
> souls around me had a little star of light always
available.
> But no one seemed to pay attention to it. They were so
> consumed with their own grief, trauma and misery. But,
> after what seemed an eternity, I started calling out to
that
> Light, like a child calling to a parent for help.
>
> Then the Light opened up and formed a tunnel that came
right
> to me and insulated me from all that fear and pain. That
is
> what Hell really is. So what we are doing is learning to
> hold hands, to come together. The doors of Hell are open
> now. We are going to link up, hold hands, and walk out of
> Hell together.
> The Light came to me and turned into a huge golden angel.
I
> said, "Are you the angel of death?" It expressed to me
that
> it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super-ancient
> part of ourselves. Then I was taken to the Light.
>
> Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going
to
> be wonderful? We are coming up with devices now that are
> sensitive to subtle energy or spirit energy. Physicists
use
> these atomic colliders to smash atoms to see what they are
> made of. They have got it down to quarks and charm, and
all
> that. Well, one day they are going to come down to the
> little thing that holds it all together, and they are
going
> to have to call that ... God.
>
> With atomic colliders they are not only seeing what is in
> here, but they are creating particles. Thank God most of
> them are short-lived milliseconds and nanoseconds. We are
> just beginning to understand that we are creating too, as
we
> go along. As I saw forever, I came to a realm in which
> there is a point where we pass all knowledge and begin
> creating the next fractal, the next level. We have that
> power to create as we explore. And that is God expanding
> itself through us.
>
> Since my return I have experienced the Light
spontaneously,
> and I have learned how to get to that space almost any
time
> in my meditation. Each one of you can do this. You do
not
> have to die to do this. It is within your equipment; you
> are wired for it already. The body is the most
magnificent
> Light being there is. The body is a universe of
incredible
> Light.
>
> Spirit is not pushing us to dissolve this body. That is
not
> what is happening. Stop trying to become God; God is
> becoming you. Here.
>
> The mind is like a child running around the universe,
> demanding this and thinking it created the world. But I
ask
> the mind: "What did your mother have to do with this?"
>
> That is the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh! my
> mother!
>