Theos-Talk Archives (November 1997 Message tt00025)

Dallas TenBroeck wrote:
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Dear Dallas: You wrote:
(snip)
> All our past errors seem sometimes to gather strength and like an enormous
> wave of emotion try to overwhelm our minds and sense of identity. But if
> we hold to the idea: "This will pass." we can withstand any such "attack."
> We are PERMANANT. They are not.
Our teminology differs but I give no disagreement with you here. I
think what I am experiencing is being told not only that I am ready and
strong enough to deal with my own past errors (or inner demons) and have
had enough assistance, but also that "chaos is out there" and it's time
to get off my butt and affect the wider process. Not just be in it.
Affect it. Manifest it. This is a responsibility and task simpletons
like me have to be dragged into, kicking and screaming.

I cannot agree with you this moment in the concept of "this will pass".
some process. It seems to require action. Action in telling someone
how you feel and what you are experiencing, to invite them to tell you
their process. Teacher to teacher, student to student, and all
permutations. Different. Action in doing it differently than before,
in the fervent hope that you're getting it right this time. A feeling
that time is running out and it's time to get prepared for the next
stage. For some of us who have been confidently verbose all our lives,
worry now about what we say and when. A pull away from the strictly
rational and scientifc to the mystical and intuitive, whether we feel
comfortable in it or not.

Different in my perception at this time. No different for others who
have been there before?

A faith in the higher self and the ability to pass through is a great
comfort and sustenance for "staying with the program". Can it be the be
all and end all? Acceptance of permanence, O.K. The truth, the
explanation for it all? I've not reached that far in understanding yet.
Those on the list who have been this route, hopefully smile benevolently
watching another come to it. Others I hope delete.

I enjoy very much all your writings and wisdom, Dallas. Can't debate
your texts. Sorry. Not the right time for me.
Cheers. Annette