Theos-Talk Archives (October 1997 Message tt00022)

> Let's first know, from this beginning that I have no answers, am
> just writing unashamedly trying to understand self.  In response
> to your response:
>
> If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it does it really
> fall? Of course it does, if it fell at all.  More to the point.
> Perhaps you did not "get love" because my attempt at expression
> is not pure enough, love is surely intended, offered, and given
> here now!.  What I had hoped to say was that purity and love are
> one.  Without one, there is cannot the other be.  An act of love
> is a total giving of oneself, without selfishness.  Without want
> and desire It is pure in it intent of giving and empty in its
> expectation.
>
> It is deep, rich, and silly.  It is shante/ananda, i.e., the joy,
> bliss and peace of simply being, sharing and giving.  There are
> too many words here.  I don't want to write into inexperience, I
> want to attempt to speak from my experience of purity/loving.  So
> let me stop.

Purity and love are not the same thing.  I can say this because
if I choose to break the rules of my temple for the purpose of
loving another human being who has not been in association with
these rules, then I am choosing love over purity.  Likewise if I
ignore loving someone so that I may continue to participate in a
level of purity which I have attained, then I have chosen purity
over love.  My freedom insists that I may have to make this
choice.

> I am speaking on a mental level, but not from a place of over
> intellectualized philosophy.  Where else do we register/know our
> experience, expect mentally.  How do we know ourselves? It seems
> to me that paying attention to concepts, "purity, goodness, etc."
> moves us far and fast away from experience.  Loving unselfishly
> is purity.  Loving for gain is impure, hurtful and destructive.
> This is my experience, form both sides of that coin.  Goodness
> with the expectation of gain, even in respect or as an attempt to
> ascend and meet with/be with the Masters who have gone before is
> tainted, in my opinion.  I believe and feel that it is only to be
> love, pure, good, with no expectation.  And I feel, know this to
> be hard.  Mental level, yes, known experience, speaking, yes.
> Lovingly.

Yes, I love being good, but I have given it up in a sense.  I
view my existence as "good" when I am on one side of the coin,
the descent through the animals.  During an ascent through
ascended masters love, I accept that my activities will be
limited to those which are constructive.  What I have known as
human trial and error is over.  I insist and demand that there
will be no more human mistakes, that through a technique of
blending ascended master and human the human has been annihilated
and my destiny of discord, selfishness, destructiveness is over.
Why is this my destiny? Because of the turning of the cycle
during the 4th root race, where I began to know within myself the
seeds of evil, wrong, and bad.  Now how can anyone go on living
viewing themselves as totally bad or the wrong side of the coin.
Well, you look to the future.  You make plans, but don't act.
You think and learn and practice only what is done in conjunction
with ascended, cosmic or angelic beings who are here for us, or
as the Elohim, our creators, have in mind for us to do.

> Perhaps I do not understand what you mean by goodness.  Perhaps I
> personalize the action more than you mean, perhaps I do not
> personalize it enough.  I don't know.  The seven races as you
> note them in your discussion, seem pulled away from and separated
> from our living, expect as metaphor.  Metaphors are sometimes
> excellent for explanation, but we do not live in them.  At bets
> they are semiotic renditions which describe.  Goodness, for me,
> is an expression of the seven harmonic rays, yes but brought
> right up past the animal world into the objective self, that is
> the conscious state of man, and then through its force, i.e.,
> love right into psychic awakening, and the functional activity of
> living.  Goodness must be that which is-being, here and now, in
> the functional behavior of my living, breathing stillness.
> Again, too many words, say too little.

This cycle of seven races as I view occurs over and over.  Seven
times on seven different planets are necessary before we reach
the level of the kingdom ahead of us.  Please understand that
this is relatively new for me.  It has only been two years since
this all devolved on me.  I realize through my own awakening that
it should be treated as a serious crisis and realignment in
living.

The light of God never fails,