Theos-Talk Archives (April 2005 Message tt00007)

Hello everyone,

I am glad to be a part of a theosophical mailing list. When I joined,
I was informed that I should first send an introduction before engage
in any discussion.

Well, for starters I've practiced qigong for 7 or so years. It just
came naturally to me so I became unusually good at it. After the first
year I began having some dreams and visions. I would not remember much
afterwards, but as the years passed I remembered more and more from
them. I didn't think much of them symbolically, but they intrigued me.
After 5 years of having the recurring dream I decided to design a
computer game based on them. Naturally, computer programming is my art
form and what a great premise for a computer game.

I had referred to them as "the Adepts" in my dreams, so I decided to
check with google.com to make sure the game title was not already
taken. The first article that caught my eye was by William Q. Judge,
called, (and I will never forget this), "The Adepts, Some Objections
and answers to them".

Some details in the article stood out. And they matched dead-on with
my dreams. Still, I was highly skeptical that this could be real. This
is when I started informing my friends of my discoveries. From then
on, I decided to write notes on my dreams, that way I could easily
compare them to articles I find later.

Soon after, I was drawn to internal alchemy. Strangely enough,
internal alchemy felt like second nature, just like qigong. After I
started, it began triggering my memory, and I started remembering more
of the dreams.

Now up until about a year or so ago, I've been starting to hear a
voice when I meditate. Oddly enough, I refered to him as, "Master", or
uncommonly as, "father". Then soon after I received a message that was
apparently precipitated to me, with the Theosophical seal stamped on
it. It said, "Mark - 'Certain adepts, who have the ability to see and
hear through both time and space...' You will awaken soon enough."
Hence my unusual e-mail address.

"I must be losing it," I thought. So recently I decided to ask
Whitney, my girlfriend, and the only person in my life who would never
pass judgement on me, to test if this was real. I told her everything,
and we set up an experiment. She would randomly pick a number from
1-10. I would ask my master to procure the number for me, and I would
say it. I was right, dead on, 4 times, and I was wrong the one time I
guessed myself (I added a control). That has a 1 in 1000 chance of
happening, statistically. Not too bad.

We went further. I asked her to guess a number between 1 and 20. 3/3
correct, that's a 1 in 8,000 chance, altogether a chance of 1 in
8,000,000. We continued until the probability of guessing was
estimated at about 1 in 160 trillion. I made sure to randomly guess
the number myself at various times (I guessed right once out of the 15
times I did this). At this point, it was highly improbable that it was
just luck. So I put some trust in the guy.

So after a long discussion with what seemed like myself, I find:
1. I'm a reincarnation of a former ascended master, named Mena-rai.
2. I was to be reincarnated 20 or so years ago but my former disciple
Lisa and I were killed unexpectedly and our physical bodies were
unsalvageable (I was killed by gunshot, my disciple was in a car
accident). We were reincarnated instantaneously. Now in this
incarnation we have other ascended masters following along side us to
make sure this doesn't happen again.
2. I am to train 1 disciple, which I have already picked. We are to
train in occultism together. I am to teach her what I learned and we
have to deal with the following problem:
3. There is a group of dugpas somewhere, that are training in a new
form of alchemy that goes past the physical realm, into the astral
realm. It causes some strange anomolies in the both of the realms, and
has the ability to make a human lose a connection with his astral body
and soul and bond with another one, or multiple, and cause him to go
insane (when they go insane they lose all sense, the astral bodies
seem to take over them). The people who are affected are known as
manifests.
4. I am to help the Theosophical society by assisting in helping
provide scientific data to back up occultism. I am going to attempt to
buy some infrared and radionics devices, and publish my findings on
the web. I'm considering doing experiments with pyrokinesis and
healing.

Well that's it. I always figured there was more to life than this. And
it seems I finally may have found it, after seven long years. If
anyone wants me to go into more detail about any of this I'd be glad
to, I just wanted to basically sum up everything without making my
e-mail *too* long (too late :P). I just wanted to see what everyone
has to say about this.

Again, this is what I experienced. I don't know if any of this is
true. I was always taught to very introspective and analytical, so
every time something pops up, I question it. So I guess what I'm
looking for is some kind of stamp of approval. I just want to know
what I'm doing is right.

-Mark H.

-- 
Mark Hamilton Jr.
waking.adept@gmail.com