Theos-Talk Archives (April 2003 Message tt00039)

Hi Everyone. Hope you are all having a good day. Sorry about all the messages. Something went wrong and two drafts got sent. Eldon, if you get a chance, please remove the messages posted at 12:05 and 11:47 and only leave the message posted at 11:56, which is 10 k.b. Anyway, I guess I have made the point.I was attempting to make in these messages. 

How are things going for you all? What do you plan to do in the next two seconds with your whole self to maintain or bring into existence a perfect balance, besides thinking "balance," which thought perhaps contributes to a further imbalance (or does it?)

I don't know if I mentioned it, but something horrible is going on in my personal life and I will never be the same again. I have had to take the next step, which is so simple. If only I had known before. Being a body is about existing in many dimensions, whereas thought is sort of flat. I believe it is important to make a distinction between mechanical thought and creative thought or the ability to wish. I notice people do not do this and that they talk about creative thought as if it is a faculty they have control over and are living by. Of course, when I think (mechanically) about it, or talk about it, it is going to appear that at that moment it is functioning as an operating principle, as I am aligned in this direction, but this is not the same as being fully intelligent and creative, but merely coinciding with this for a brief interval? What do you think? Wry

p.s. What brought me down was my biggest character flaw which was that I frequently perceived others to be perceiving on a much more developed level than they were, and also perceived that they were perceiving what I perceived, which means I was idealizing and is a form of magical thinking. When I did this, I was not able to appropriately correlate my responses to an exact enough degree in certain instances and was basically too trusting. I have probably, almost certainly, done this on here, too. Something really horrible has happened to me. The only thing that is getting me through this is realizing that it is the fruit of my own karma. It also helped that I had several hours of teaching on the subject of slander (which I thought at the time was very boring) right before this happened. The key point, as I have mentioned on here previously, is that people tend to get very upset when they are slandered, but not that upset when others are slandered. It did not, unfortunately, so into how such slander can destroy a person's life, but we are taught to eat poison. Because of this experience, which I am trying to be grateful for, the rug of not everything but much that was meaningful has sort of been ripped out from under me, and I have had to face life anew without a lot of previous false conclusions that were supporting me in my delusional state about the nature of physical reality.

Recently (two days ago) I have experienced a Buddhist teaching that so was extraordinary as to have given me a new sense of meaning and perspective. Though I am not able to give this teaching out here, I will try to write about how this was transmitted to me through the vehicle of allegory. I can never thank enough or repay the human beings who have enabled me to learn to decipher allegorical teaching, which can be given in many various and peculiar styles, depending on the culture and also particular personal style. I have been and will continue to share with you what I have learned in this respect, and maybe we can begin to look at the work of Madame Blavatsky and see if and how she used this particular device.


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