Theos-Talk Archives (November 1999 Message tt00063)

Hi all, it is been a while since i writed here.
The reason for my delay in writing, besides of changing my email adress, it is because of serious difficulties in my schoolwork. the pressure it is been extreme, and i have the feeling that i cannot do it.
    Well, i am quite young still, but as some of you have experienced once in a while in their lifetime, there are a certain time in your life when you experience what the rolling stones have called "19 nervous breakdown"
    I am passing now one of those moments. i will not waste time explaining the serious difficulties what i am having in my schoolwork project, but i will resume them in one: Want to get the heck out of here. I claim mercy. I realize that i am doing something that i should have never started, and the major difficulty: I cannot finish it.
    I am feeling right now like in a bad version of a Kafka book, and the depression it is something more ahead that i can manage. i need help. I do not like to cause compassion or that other pepole do the work i am supposed to do, but, if i am asking for help, it is because this is more than i can handle for the moment.
    And all of you, dear good folks, maybe true magicians in disguise, i have followed you, even if i do not write, and trying to learn, as i do always all the time, and i like when you make me laugh, and i feel sad when you feel sad.
    But i know that you always had changed me, for the better: for you make me learn.
    And that is good.
    But now i am appealing to your mercy, and your help, as friends that you are, as i consider you. speccialy to the most closest and kind that always have been there when i had asked help.
    And i really need a big effort of help now. What kind of help?? the best. Just pray. your good will and good taughts. because for me it is a time of emptyness, and i really cannot do more effort. i have tried, but i do not know how to help myself.
    As you had noticed, i am quite lonely. in fact, i am, as never, or maybe few times in my life.
    Thank you all, in advance, for your concern, if any. any help is welcome.

    "Trying to reach the stars, but still in earth, how far am I...."
 
    Estrella