Theos-Talk Archives (December 1997 Message tt00009)

Friends,

There's one more thing I'd like to say to Daniel. From past experience
observing Mr. Caldwell, I have noticed one thing. He doesn't ever quit.
Tomorrow, I'm going to rise in the morning again wondering what accusations
I have to field again. What starts out as an innocent DIALOGUE, which I
stress because this is his favorite true form and all others play
secondary, becomes a battle of two opposite forces so that the person he
stands opposite is forced to live every day with every thought directed
towards what can I claim he is doing which will keep his insatient ego
satisfied.

Because I write on this list and entered a conversation with him, I have to
wake up every morning with my every thought aimed at improving his lot.
Well, I tell you true, this is not my idea of a fun time. I prefer having a
party with lots of guests. There are certainly more peaceful souls among
you who enjoy exchanges, sharing what we're learning, feeling,
experiencing, and who we are, and I'd much rather direct my thoughts and
attention to some of you. I feel like I'm caught in a web.

Brenda